Yes! the holidays are here and I need to find a job!

It's hard to get a job these days. T_T

There are some days I just want to be away from everything else and live in my own happy world. lol. Is that possible?

Did stupid things, putting up a dismal performance and I can't help it! Or can I?
Where's the confidence when you need it the most? ARGH.

Speaking of which, (must be the hormones) I'm getting very frustrated and MAD over things I've no control of and also, about the things people don't do. Sometimes, you think of the effort you put it and it somehow always fizzles at the end. What's worse, there ain't no reciprocity. It does makes you wonder who are your true friends.

Oh well, I must end on a happy note.

I cannot have myself brooding over matters I have no control of. It's time to be different.

Haha YES. My first entry for 2009, and it will be about FOOD! FOOD, GLORIOUS FOOD!

lol.

Have been really enjoying myself (note: feasting, to be exact) on SINFUL, BUT OH SO HEAVENLY, WONDERFUL, LUSCIOUS, MOUTH-WATERING DISHES!

hahahahahahahahahahaha.

I'm like so high.

It all began when my family and I went to jp to have our dinner on last fri for chinese buffet!!! all right, it's a bit of a splurge but ever since my mum hinted that she wants to go and try the buffet, i was like...GO FOR IT MAN! lol. pardon my enthusiasm.

AND...it was good! there wasn't much variety, but the quality was not too bad. To my delighted surprise. :D

Next, had curry chicken and laksa for lunch on SATURDAY!

wow. did i hear something clogging up? my arteries, i fear?!?! hahaha. cholestrol, cholestrol, cholestrol. tsk tsk.

THEN. I had seafood platter @ fish n co for dinner!

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? lol. I've sinned too much. Oh almighty Body of Mine, please forgive me. :D

Wait, there's more.

I had claypot rice for dinner today. OMG.

That's it.

Life is good. When one is full, satisfied and HAPPY!

FOOD PORN, everybody!

lol.

CHANGE.

What does it takes for me to figure out what I want from life? Or rather, what I should do with my life?

How?

I don't know. It seems like right from the start you've been 'programmed' to think about what you wanna do with your life. We were tasked to do compositions with the headings like, What you want to be when you grow up. So I am sure that everyone, at some point, have at least thought about it. Or be obsessed about it (which can be a good thing actually).

And so what I'm gonna do?

I don't know.

But I need to know.

I've given this a deeper thought and nothing much came out of it. I want a comfortable and enriching life. Who doesn't want that? Haha.

I don't know.

What do I know?

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Doc tells me I am too nervous, I should learn to relax.

Mum feels I shouldn't think too much. I worry too much.

Am I so uptight? (haha think it's a rhetorical question)

On a different note, I was blog-surfing a while ago and I'm envious. lala~

A friend's mum told me to work hard.

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There, he said it.

wonderful.

Why am I not surprised?

Because I can see it coming.

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Poof!

There goes the 1st week of school. Haha I was looking forward to the new school term. Why? Because like every start of the term, I bring with me renewed hope and a dash of vigour that many good things will come. Like I've always wished. I'm just fond of everything new. Hehe.

So a toast to the new school term! and the many many manyyyyyyyyyyyy things I want to do in the future.

I'm so greedy.

Anyway, enough of dreaming. It's high time to bring me back to reality. As much as I don't want to blog about school, I can't. It's an integral part of my life - at the moment. A HUGE portion.

Haha you get what I mean.

Aiyo. I'm having doubts. Argh. Arghh. Arghhh. Confused.

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Last week, I bade goodbye to pipettes, agar plates and DNA gels.

Next week, I'm going to say hello to books, paper and pens.

Labels: The end of a beginning